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1999
Born in Peterborough Ontario, Canada on July 17, 1999.
 
Dusttins diagnosis...
Dusttin was diagnosed with Leukemia on March 16/17, 2005 and caught it early and in remission as early as April, 2005. Dusttin passed suddenly and unexpectedly on July 21, 2005, Just 4 days after his 6th Birthday.. Very painful and devastating!  He was misdiagnosed when he was admitted with a fever and this turned our lives upside down, a nightmare that will forever be with us.....


One night after a great day with Dusttin i was preparing Dusttin to bed, getting his pajamas on him and I noticed Dusttin had some bruises on him, he had about 10 little bruises on him the size of my pinky finger nail. I was curious, so i called the health clinic and asked if i should bring him him. They called the doctors and then called me back telling me to bring him into the clinic in the morning. 
Dusttin and I walked to the clinic the following morning, and we saw a different doctor as my family doctor was not in that day. This doc said to me, in a rude way, all kids bruise.. HE acted like i was bringing in my son for some little normal bruises. 
Sure all kids bruise, but these bruises did not look like normal ones. They happened to all look the same and had them spread out on him. 

Doc sent Dusttin for blood work. '

WE did that.

The next morning on March 16th i got a call from my family doctor telling me to bring Dusttin to the pediatricians, that his platelets were really really low. And that it could be a possible sign of leukemia. 
Then and there i freaked out and called Kirk at work, crying and called my sister crying... Told Jonathon we were taking Dusttin to the pediatricians....  
I jumped in the shower crying histerically.... 
Kirk made it home, we took Dusttin up to the pediatricians. She said Dusttin had to be admitted so we could do further testing. Dusttin was happy, he didn't look or act sick. He only had some bruises on him. I did not understand.. I just new it was a nightmare starting of some sort..... I never experienced anything so severe in my life.....

We walked to the hospital, which was connected to the pediatricians, and we got Dusttin admitted. 
They did more blood work, and the doc on call there came and and told me results. She took me into a room and told me that it seems Dusttin has a good chance of having Leukemia. I cried, and cried, and cried......

I went back to the room and hugged my Dusttin in disbelief, I told Kirk, and we made some phone calls. My sister came and took me to her house so i could tell my oldest son Jonathon. I told him and he lost it. Jonathon was 13 turning 14. Our lives were a nightmare, we didn't understand... IT didn't seem real....
I went back home, showered again, got some of Dusttins toys and books, and pillows, our personal hygeine things and headed back to the hospital. 
Dusttin was playing playstation and what he seemed to be, was happy and not sick...

The next morning , St Patricks Day, March 17th 2005...they shipped us to a bigger supposedly better hospital, one that specializes in leukemia etc... 
 
An ambulance attendant did some magic tricks all the way there for Dusttin, it was a 45 minute drive. 

They wheeled Dusttin into this room, kids everywhere with no hair.. I didn't understand, i never saw that before.. I was scared..... My Dusttin was brave and just new he was not well but he didn't understand... I had to ask the nurses to close the curtains because i couldn't handle to look around.. I was feeling sick... I was lost.. I was alone with my son and all these new faces.. 
They took my son to do a Bone Marrow aspiration, we got the results to find out Dusttin did have Leukemia... 
Our lives changed.. Our nightmare...
Dusttin spent 3 1/2 weeks in the hospital for his first treatments of chemo etc..... 
He did good, and was still happy and showing no signs of sickness, other than that morning i ran my fingers through his hair to find out he was starting to lose his hair.. My heart kept skipping but i was strong, i knew my Dusttin would beat this.. I new he would.. The nurses all told me how strong Dusttin is, how most kids that came in there for this, were real sick , while my Dusttin didn't show he was..

We went home, and went once a week for treatment for chemo. 
At the end of May, Dusttin got a fever, and i brought him in. They couldnt find out through blood work why he had one, nothing was showing up.
So they said he had """"POSSIBLE PNEMONIA""" Telling me this without doing a lung biopsy, because his left lung looked cloudy.....
Dusttin went through many obstacles, and his fevers ended up going away.. HE was feeling much better.
Dusttin had his 6th birthday in the hospital, we had a party, his cousins, aunts and uncles , family members and friends came. Dusttin smiled all day, he was so happy that day, July 17th..He wanted a riding jeep, and he got it. He got so much stuff, he loved his birthday. He had two beautiful birthday cakes. My sister made fruit sticks and we all had lots of food and drinks. 

July 21st the doc told Dusttin he was dong so well that we could finally prepare to go home.... Dusttin was so happy.

He was always so shy at the hospital he would smile more than talk to the nurses or others...
Well that day, July 21st, Dusttin told the alphabet to Gerry, one of the volunteers whom often visited Dusttin, and Dusttin also sang row row row your boat to him. He talked to the doctors and nurses as well. 
The doctor told Dusttin he can finally get ready to go home soon, we could go for walks outside the hospital and stay at the ronald mc donald house, until we felt comfortable to be at home again.. Dusttin was so happy when he heard this, he wanted to go home and make a toy store in his bedroom from all of the toys given to him during his hospital stay....

Boston pizza came around to give out free pizza that day, Dusttin had two pieces and wanted more. Dusttin's Aunt Bev came down and had pizza with us and we took lots of pictures on that day too. We pulled him around the hospital in the wagon, we showed him places he always asked me to show him, so i finally did it that day...

Kirk and i went out to buy Dusttin a wagon, while my sister Tanya, Dusttin's Aunt and his little cousin Casandra, sat with Dusttin. 
I came back from Walmart with Dusttins wagon and lots of more fun stuff to do. Dusttin had fun dip in his bed, so we changed his sheets. He enjoyed his candy with his aunt. 

Later that evening around 10:30 pm , Dusttin made some couging noises.. I was outside the room, Kirk was in the room. Kirk grabbed me and i went in, at the same time code blue was called because Dusttin started to cough up blood. 
I stood beside Dusttin, the room filled with with doctors and nurses, IV machines, and other machines... Dusttin looked at me with his big blue eyes, as i stood beside him helplessly watching him.. Telling him to stay strong and he will be ok... I told him, i said, stay strong Dusttin, Mommy loves you....
As i watched my Dusttin as he wouldn't take his eyes off of mine, he started to bleed more and more, it started to come out of his nose and mouth and i could hear the gurggling.. I watched in horror, as Dusttin watched me.. I didn't know what to do.. I thought he was going to be ok.. Kirk and my sister were standing outside the door waiting to come in. 

A nurse looked at me and said, you shouldnt be in here.. I said to her, this is my little boy.. I stepped back...  She looked at me again, and said it again, i repeated myself, and another nurse asked if wanted my fiancee in , so she sent in Kirk..
 
I watched helplessly as my little boy starred into my eyes, while he hemorraged.... i listened to him gurggling.. I was traumatized..... Dusttin watched me for as long as he could while this happened to him... 
I don't know how i live wiht myself......... I Miss my Dusttin...

My tears do not stop.....

They said they could try to do one last thing, and for me to hold his hand.. They tried and it didn't work, so they told me sorry.. Now that is devastating, i am messed, i miss my boy.........

July 21, 2005 11:23 p.m.
 
malpractice takes away lives... Just like my Dusttins, his was cut short...
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**********AUTOPSY RESULTS**********
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SOME OF THE RESULTS..
THE IMMEDIATE CAUSE OF DEATH IS LIKELY HEMORRAHAGE SECONDARY TO FUNGAL INFECTION ERODING THE PULMONARY ARTERY AND SECONDARY BRONCHUS.
DUSTTIN HAS BEEN IN REMISSION FROM LEUKEMIA SINCE APRIL. 

 
So to say, Malpractice............ Dusttin was not followed through with his fever. He had an infection in his left lung that went untreated. He was told that same day he became an angel that he was better and to get ready to go home soon.  The bug spread into his artery, eroding it.. Dusttin also had a lung biopsy a couple days prior to make sure all was good because his "so called fever that he DID NOT have" was as they said, cured and gone.  I often wonder if they hit his artery when they did the lung biopsy..  I am so angry at the doctor whom he was in the care, how devastating.. I am so angryyy............. 


FORGED AUTOPSY PAPERS DONE BY THE DOCTOR!!!!!! SICKNING................
I had requested an autopsy, well the doctor ended up forging my paper and submitting a whole different paper. She went ahead and did an autopsy on whatever she wanted without my consent. I am in midst of fighting over that as well. I requested the autopsy paper but she said it was lost. It took from July to November 2005 for her to supposedly find it. And then to send me a forged paper with four different hand writings on it and a paper i never even saw in my life. How ignorant can this doctor be to TRY to take advantage of such situation.... I am angry, devastated and will continue to fight this........

 
Monument details....

I took off the information in regards to donating towards helping
in raising enough funding for my Angel Dusttin's Monument.
I found a different place that is two thousand dollars cheaper than what it was where Dusttins is and
soon will be going through them. I will make payments through them
as it seems much more reasonable than the other place i was going through. Donations are accepted through paypal, just send me a message and i can give you details to what my paypal is..I can get the same monument and such for 2 thousand cheaper, that is alot helpful! Also, i am not happy with the grounds where my son is because i got a letter in the mail from them today saying i can not have any thing on the ground where my son is because it is in their guidelines. I am very sad about that, it is not fair. So now i have to go and take the cars, solar light and flowers. I have until September 4th to do so. They are very unfair to do this to me. Isn't is just awful, how so many, including doctors can take advantage of a grieving mother..
Regarding the doctor, well i signed for an autopsy for Dusttin to have done and they did more than i signed for. I asked why, she said i signed that. I wanted to see my original autopsy paper but they lost it for four months after i fought to see it. They somehow found their copy. It turned out to be a forged different copy. Was not my signature, nor was it the same paper i signed. I remembered that much because i was hesitant to have an autopsy done in the first place. So to make a long story short, i fought and fought about this for almost a year. Never got far because the doctor would not comment. There is way more to this in her wrong doing that i now have to live with. I had nightmares over this...  Plus i have two burials now, because i insisted i get the piece they took.. Dusttin has a double plost so we used his top plot for his second burial.. How cold hearted can people be..

I have to thank the social worker from the hospital for driving this far to bring me what was not supposed to be taken, she is a great social worker for the hospital. Very caring lady! If she didn't bring it, the doctors told me i had to drive up and get it, they would put it in a box and can you imagine that?????????????????? Crazy.......... I would have been crazy if i did that.......
Ok i went on more than i intended..
Hugs

Editing.. I have Dusttin's monument and when the grounds are soft enough, which i know they are now.. They will soon be putting in the foundatin so we can put in Dusttin's monument. I will be attending that soon too! The place i have Dusttin's monument from are great, they are letting me make payments, as much as i can when i can, they are Great! I will be posting a picture soon!


 
Kindergarten 2004/2005
Dusttin at school in kindergarten. He is feeding a bunny in this picture!
Dusttin was not too fond of going to school, he was such a mommys boy  that he didn't want to part with me, as i was not ready for him to be in school either. I wish i didn't put him in kindergarten. I often wonder if he picked up a bug causing the nasty beast leukemia.. Cause as they say, they dont' know how  for sure one gets the beast...
 
Halloween 2004

Halloween was not Dusttins favorite, although he did enjoy it somewhat. His favorite was Christmas and Easter. 

Dusttin in his pumpkin outfit! My little pumpkin! \Dusttin's last Halloween.....

 
Christmas 2004
Me and Dusttin at Christmas time 2004! 
Christmas is never the same, i love you Dusttin! 
 
Easter 2005
Dusttin always in great spirits. He loved Easter it was one of his favorite times of the year he told me!
Me and Dusttin greeting the Easter bunny in this pic.
 
Tulip from Dusttin on Mothers Day 2005
Dusttin was discharged from the hospital on the day before Mothers day in this picture. I stayed with Dusttin in the hospital always. We were discharged and Dusttin had given me this Tulip for Mothers day, it also had hershey kisses with it! 
I miss you my sweet Dusttin!

I now buy a purple tulip for Mother's Day since my last one with my precious son Dusttin.
 
July 17, 2005 Dusttin's 6th Birthday!
Dusttin enjoying his jeep he got for his 6th birthday, just 4 days before he UNEXPECTEDLY, SUDDENLY became an angel. 



 
2005
Passed away on July 21, 2005 at the age of 6.
 In Ontario Canada.

This picture was taken on Dusttin's same day, his angel day. The same day he had his physical therapy to get his legs strong again and prepare to go home.  The same day the doctor told Dusttin he was all better! (Dusttin and myself were lied to)

Dusttin went home to heaven....
 
Life after......

Losing a child is a parents worst nightmare.  My life changed forever, i am never the same again. Each day i start is a day to get through to the next. 
I lost 17 lbs the first month after Dusttin became an angel because i could not eat anything. I was a mess. I always thougth if Dusttin couldn't eat why should i. It took a long time for me to be able to even cook again.  Or to even shop or go into the stores. 
 
I have since felt much alone, trying to learn to live. I don't know many and i dont' have much family, as my journy is very hard. I am trying to get out more and wanting to meet more. But i find it very hard to do so.  
I have had many signs from Dusttin and i pray he send me many more to help me. If i could see him outside my dreams, that would make my journy much more easier but not all easy. 

I miss you Dusttin! Come to me sweetheart, in my dreams and out! I love you!

Here is a picture taken of me getting into an elavator. I was looking down at my daughter before i stepped on, as you can see there is a light to the right, with orbs possibly around it a touch. I can only pray this was a sign! oxox

 
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